Well well well, it’s Valentine’s Day evening! I hope you all had a great day! I woke up quite late, about noon…ish. I rolled myself out of bed, took one look out the window…and almost went back to sleep. It was just a wall of white out there! The snow was flying everywhere the wind was so strong!
So after at least four cups of strong black coffee, and a scalding hot shower(I’m a sadist, I enjoy torturing myself), I ventured out into the frigid temperatures; it was about -4 or so not including the wind chill…which made it -16 and that sucked balls. The roads were not plowed and the snow was being blown all over the roads so it made it almost impossible to see even a foot beyond the hood of my car! It was so windy, I was sliding all over the road and I’m thankful there wasn’t ice. Otherwise…I probably wouldn’t be here, I’m a terrible driver even in some of the better conditions!
So, I went and visited my Granny at the nursing home she lives in; I’m glad it’s only six miles up the way. I visit her on all my days off, which happens to be four out of the seven days of the week! We sat and ate chocolate and talked for about four hours, her neighbor across the hall even came in to visit with us; a lovely lady.
I enjoy visiting my grandma, she’s the only grandparent I have left and I love her very much. When my sister and I were younger, we spent every summer at their house; and even some weekends too! She taught us how to play tennis, we would go to the pool, the park, the library! They’d take us to plays and musicals and to the ballet at the Palace Theater. Sadly her husband, my grandpa died right before Christmas this last year, and she is in stage 5 almost stage 6 of Alzheimer’s disease.
It’s…hard for me to deal with knowing that one day, she’ll forget me. My grandmother on my dad’s side, also had Alzheimer’s disease…and passed away not knowing me. I was always very close with all of my grandparents. I was very lucky.
Anyways, after spending several hours with my granny, I went and did my usual weekend chores; you know, laundry, dishes, grocery shopping. I came home this evening and promptly put on my OnePiece and started inhaling chocolates. I’m currently on my second box. Judge me. They have declared a level 2 snow emergency for tonight AND IT HASN’T. STOPPED. SNOWING. ALL. DAY.
It’s around 11:30pm right now and I’m just watching the snow blow all around outside my window here.
I want to share a poem with all of you guys that I wrote when I was in high school for a project. It’s not very…valentine-esque but hey…not everything has to coordinate.
It’s called Colored Glass.
I still find pieces of you in the back of my mind,
you’re standing there,
holding a green bottle above your head.
I’m not even sure why I always see this image of you,
I can’t even remember what the circumstance was.
It’s just there; like a still photo.
I can’t get over that,
when I remember what happened,
when I remember how you left,
everything we had said,
set in stone,
on the tip of your tongue.
We had it all,
you and I;
headed straight to the top,
but we never reached the summit.
You told me once about how,
when you were small,
you were followed by those ghosts,
those demons were closing in on you.
Just like you, I was fighting for my own freedom. But you just wouldn’t let me go.
I don’t even know where to begin, I hadn’t even known you for very long, until you crashed into my universe and created this black hole of empty;
claiming you would save me from the darkness that was clawing around the edges of my eyes.
But we ended up sharing a silence,
and it swallowed me up and spat me out all alone.
Maybe I should have known better,
you did warn me after all.
I’m afraid you taught me some good lessons.
I don’t believe in anything anymore,
I’m not dependant on the people around me anymore though, so that’s good I guess.
But don’t forget to remember my name,
because oh baby,
I’m going to come back to haunt you.
Keep your eyes open.
Well, I hope you pups liked that! I love you guys so much! I hope today was a good Valentine’s day for all of you guys! If you had a night out with your significant other, or a night in by yourself; I just hope it was lovely, because you deserve to be happy!
Alright, well I’m off to inhale the rest of this chocolate! Stay warm out there pups! Good night! xxx
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