“From the moment I saw you, something shifted. Logic faded, and a certainty took hold—I knew I was going to fall in love with you. You are everything I’ve ever looked for, and somehow, everything I never knew I needed. Our connection defies reason, yet it feels more real than anything I’ve ever known. With you, I promise to embrace the unexpected, to cherish the chemistry that binds us, and to always find joy in the unique bond we share.”

The moment I opened the doors to that Bob Evans, my stomach has only known butterflies, my heart has never known anything except your name.

There was something so comforting and warm at the way that you smiled at me. You were so vulnerable and opened up about the fact that when you are stressed and anxious you pick at your nails especially your thumbnail and both of your thumbnails are so damaged that they have a permanent divot down the middle of them. I remember taking your hand in my hand, gently kissing it and telling you it’s gonna be OK; because one day your anxiety will stop. I know you didn’t believe me. I’ve tried everything I could possibly do from that moment on to make your life easier and yet every moment of my life that has had you in it has been difficult. You didn’t belong to me. I knew that but at the same time I didn’t realize that you had belonged to someone else. You lied and deceived me. You broke my heart, shattered my trust and made me look and feel like a fool all because you wanted to have your cake and eat it too. Now that I know that there was never going to be an us, I look back on all of our interactions and wonder was any other actually true? Were you lying to me from the moment we sat down on our first date or did something happen after we met. Were you hiding me and her from each other? I’m certain that you did not want us to find out about one another because how could you you wanted to keep us separate so that both of us could serve you in different ways? Your heart was never going to be mine just your body and even then, you gave me that so sparingly then all I’ve ever done is think about it. I have been starved for your affection since the moment we started talking. I wanted it to be you so badly that no matter what I did or said I would say and do anything just to keep you. Even if you didn’t wanna be kept, not by me anyway. Oh she must be really special if you’re going to marry her, but I hope that she knows how special you are too and how extraordinary your life truly is. Just how wonderful your heart is and how kind, compassionate, and loving you truly are. I hope that every moment she is with you, she cherishes you like the precious gem you’ve always been to me. I hope that when you lay down with her at night she holds you with the softness I know that you crave. That she kisses your tender lips with the passion that you bring out in those around you and I hope that she holds your heart so close to her that there is nothing that could ever break it again.