The instant I laid eyes on you, I could already feel myself falling in love. We spent so long laughing and talking on our first date that our waitress was kind of mad at us.

And we spent equally as much time outside, leaning up against the hood of my car after we left. I had no idea how hard I would fall for you.

I’ve always fallen in love quickly, didn’t really matter who with. But being loved the way you loved me had never happened before. The way you held me was all I had ever wanted, and it worried me how willing I was to overlook certain things. How fast I opened up to you. I can’t remember the last time I was this happy that everyone in my life noticed and commented on it and when they started doing it, I actually got really scared because I knew it was going to hurt when you left, I was right.

I can only remember one other instance of me feeling this type of pain over losing another person. It nearly killed me then and I feel it slowly killing me now. What’s worse is that I cannot find you, I cannot reach you. You’ve disappeared, but I wanted to tell you this so instead of just trying to find you and telling just you, I am going to tell the world. I want the whole world to know how easily I fell in love with you, how wonderful you are, your soft hands, the spicy smell of your cologne, your bubbling laugh, even those ridiculous nose strips you wore to bed.

I would have loved you for a long time had to let me. I keep hoping you will come back, or maybe I will run into you somewhere and be able to tell you how badly I miss you.